Wednesday, January 30, 2008
nadirah ishak has officially passed her btt...!!!! hahahahahs!!!!
gosh soo much for the gancheong-ness.. soo much for the panic mode at the last minute.. dragged kh dwn to ssdc at abt 11am okais to book for another trial paper earlier than the one i dragged the girls down with me during break to book cuz i was soo scared i'd eventually fail the paper today sehhs..hahahs!!
so in da end 11 plus we reached ssdc.. book for the 1-2pm practise session.. den attend the 2-3pm practise session tt i booked with the girls yest AND 3-4pm the btt! hahahas... the 2 of us were seperated la.. frm 1 end to the oth.. and then we both went dwn to marina in search for RED JACKET! hahahas.. and like duh we came back with more then what we went there for.. hahahs!
and as for now.. any recommendation for GOOD driving instructors??!! i wanna finish my ftt asap too! at least before i complete my time in nyp.. bt sheesh haven booked yet!
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Tuesday, January 29, 2008
okais... both me and eunice rmbered our very own online story.. and i cant believe that super looong and stored story was still lying somewhere in my memory till eunice states.. *ice ignores dee* LOL!!!! its god damn hilarious..
ohh by the way on sunday.. i've officially bite and chewed and sucked on the chocs marissa gave to me.. and.. its god heavenly! you know like a drug addict.. the very 1st time you tried smtg new.. it taste... sooo undescribable.. and the nxt time no matter how much more you eat the very same thing it'll nvr taste as nice as the very 1st time you tried it... so yes in order to help me rmb the niceee taste of the choc i've added on more info tts link to the chocs.. like for eg.. on how many LAYERS of wrappers i have to go through before i can finally lay my hands on the chocolate.. or like.. how i screamed at my dad for moving those chocs away frm the designated place cuz i scared it'll melt! LOL!!! like some precious thing sia.. when it's only a shukulate... ohh by the way i gtta go through 7 layers of wrappers.. and its well worth! hahahas..
anws.. 2nd week of sch.. and erms.. im yawning my heads offf... and exams in 2 wks time! graaaahs!!! btt tmr! -and i'm extremely anxious!
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meaning of 11 oct:
"Things dont come easy to you, even though you have the potential and the caliber. spiritually inclined, you tend to take a step back from the world in introspection. You're very sensitive to what's going on around you, yet you remain composed. Although you are brilliant, it may take you a while to find your niche. Your creativity is supreme, but it sometimes makes it hard for you to get things done."
anw yest is a bipolar day sia! in morn i was having the time of my life with the lil long lost honey marissa she last minute nadirah you free come lets go to town.. hahahs.. bt no we didnt go to town cuz i DONT like town.. so i drag her dwn to marina instead.. and we were catching up so much.. and we come to a topic tt totally spooke the 2 of us out tt it was darn hilarious! okok.. and she made me do silly things just in order to give me a surprise gift how sweet is tt?! hahhahas!!! cute sia her! theen! aft having lunch i gtta cabbed dwn to sengkang where dad is cuz rahman apparently has taken OFF and the new guy seems to helpless at an ultra busy area and time and day! sheesh...
let me just cut the whole story short and say the night was hell! and it was pleasing enough that im extremely tired and when a msg frm rahman came abt i seriously wanted to kill him already! hahs! so yes to literally say it.. yest morn was heaven and the night was an ultra hell!
i wish to slap tt damn mother fucking pakcik! and to hell i wish he'll go and i wish his face will appear in the newspaper one of these days in the orbituary section! i wish i hope and i shall pray for it! such an asshole!
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Thursday, January 24, 2008
sometimes i wonder if theres a thing called peace in this world...
if theres such things called enjoying life.. if theres a thing called empathy and sympathise for others situations.. if human beings really do have the heart to extend a helping hand for those who needs help and guidance.. no matter race.. religion nor nationality..
i'm begining to doubt it even exist in the first place..
anws i want to spent 5 mins walking to the beach and literally sit/scream/cry/stone/ or whatever my heart desire till dusk.. and i wanna watch sunrise.. but saying all this is useless due to the fact i'll nvr be let out of the hse just to head for the beach this late at night which IS for my very own good too.. but... sigghhhs..
1 more presentation to go and i'm sooo done with projects for this sem.. i kinda screw up my part just now.. tsk3!
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Wednesday, January 23, 2008
its NOT even the end of 1st week back to sch and im on the verge of breaking apart.. seriously.. i was LATE for 3 consecutive days actually no yest i was early.. bt heck.. then.. i totally screw up on the things im suppose to bring yest.. i can bring 2 pg of notes before and aft but not the notes tt were needed on tt particular lesson how IRRITATING!
to consider i have a presentation tmr and on friday.. and still have arab lesson which ends at 10.. when i just wanna have a good night's slp! sighhs!
my immunity is down yet agn.. well done nadirah you've just stressed your body yet agn..!
anws.. met AS tt day and he says he wanna get admitted to ttsh once i strt wrking there.. and hear this out! he states tt he'll self injure himself if he's not injured just to be admitted to ttsh! AHHAHAHS!! damn nonsense sia tt olddd man! and i got whack on my legs by him.. -.-"!
on a totally brighter note.. happy bday to andy goh ming jin and also to my one and only kambing! =))!! happy bday you guys!!
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ohhs i forgot to mention i actually met quite a no. of ppl at kkh last week lehhs.. firstly i met sgh wd58's CI NG CHIEW MEI! she still recognise my face okais.. i met her in the staff toilet hahahas! she was making soo much noise talking to another staff den i was like her voice soo familiar then i saw a water bottle with her name on it so when she finally came out of the toilet i was like CIII!!!! hahahahahhas! damn cute! den i met kak faizah on the very 1st day on wrk.. and tt's like the one and only time i met her there.. i miss her sooo much la.. she was doing night and was heading hme when i met her..
and then... i met CHERYL HONEY!!! at the CT scan room.. the staff was like go there and leave the pt there.. bt like soo kesian sehhs.. leave the pt there alone.. soo i acc her throughtout the whole thing.. and while checkig her particulars i saw this girl there and there you go.. my dearest cheryl.. bt a hug was missed..=(! and its been an extremely loooong time since we met okais!
and theen.. while heading back to the ward frm the CT.. I MET PUVA!!!!!!!! omg!!! i seems to be bumping into her only when im in kkh sehhs! anws.. she's already a qualified PCA ready! omg.. tts like god damn fast larhs! graahs..
and then i also saw laxman there.. apparently he's visiting smone la.. and.. i didnt call him out.. LOL!!
finally a peaceful sunday.. a snday tt we dont have to rush all abt to get to the psr mlm.. a sunday tt we literally woke up late and still slacking arnd when its nearly 1 pm already.. hahahs.. i miss this kinda sundays.. and i tink i'll missed it even more when prcp strts and then wrking life...
on a lighter note.. its the 20th already.. money's coming in very soon! yay! the bank acc is screaming already due to its diminishing supplies..
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Saturday, January 19, 2008
ahhh last posting at kkh... and its pretty sad cuz for a well known hospital the posting this time pretty much sucks! the staff arent nice.. but the sister however is nice besides on one ocasion i was being told off for my bracelet..
talking abt not nice staffs... i understand tt sometimes.. ok quite alot of times.. staffs have to do too much wrk.. and.. face difficult and demanding pts.. but i seriously dont see the need for them to be soo darn stuck ups sia! who cares if you're a staff nurse with 1001 yrs of experience.. bt with such a horrible attitude nobody would wanna wrk with you sehhs... ok ok.. now.. dont mention staff nurses... how bout prcp students.. THEY ARE ONLY PRCP STUDENTS! and they can give us attitudes.. this one i totally CANT TAKE IT! gosh... baru prcp give us attitude already i wonder what happens if they become SNs... soo nice and lovey dovey and helpful with the SNs.. hypocrites.. munafiks! sigghhs..
slap me if i ever become like tt!
i still dont get it.. we're going to be under them one fine day.. but if we are not being taught now.. we're just going to be stupid nurses under them which then will causes them to have more things to handle rights?! so erms right now.. who's the brainless ppl???
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Tuesday, January 15, 2008
i am a god damn nice girl today okaiis.. seriously.. in the morn i woke up and reach kkh BEFORE 0630.. like omg la soo damn early! i strted wrk with a positive attitude besides the constant YAWNINGS.. and my super black eye rings... and at 3.00 headed to pw met up with the one and only who'll meet me up at such a short notice.. and then we went to do some shopping.. and then the 2 of us.. brave through thunder storm to get our cups of starbucks coffee.. and not to frgt starbucks was FLOODED! and there were soo many leakage.. it was an UGLY sight.. then we brave back to safe grounds.. and cont shopping to throw a last min bday party for my dearest cousin amirah.. 18th bday larhhs...
so before hand we already pakat with her mom to trick her to come over to my hse la.. and so.. i get hold of lia and nana and arnd 6 plus they were over ready.. den i drag the 2 dwn to get the cake... and we hide at hme and await for the bday girl to come up with liya... and not to frgt i got the magic candles too.. and yes.. you can imagine her reaction when we open the door to welcome her with a chocolate cake plus lighted candles -i light it okais.. all 18 of them!- infact i light.. and blow them off.. and gtta relight agn due to lack of communication btwn lia and liya... and i actually prepared a small bowl of water to throw the candles in cuz its the magic candle cannot blow finish ones.. and yes.. AMIRAH BLOW TILL SHE'S SOB!! aahahhs... im evil.. LOL! andd andd.. we just had all the fun tt cld have happen on a weekday's night! haahs... and if anybody's feeling gloomy or smtg.. i'd like to apologise before hand cuz we might have just used up the weekday's fun energy! HAHAHAHS!!!!
and i even gt granny her automatic bp set...
so yes tell me im such a good girl today?! ahahahahs!!
anws anws.. today i tink i finally realise the true meaning to giving empathy and not sympathy to my patients... i realise tt empathy actually stretches out much frther then sympathy can ever bring you to.. and i realise that you dont need words to express yourself.. especially rare nowadays in this fast moving pace.. and very demanding patients.. sighhs.. nursing as a frontline service job.. frontline health provider... its too much wrk and too lil pay! -i protest!!
on a lighter note.. happy blated bday solihin(14/1)
happy bday amirah (15/1)
happy bday azmi_16/1) jan babies!! tsk tsk tsk.. soo old liaos! ahahahahs!!
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Saturday, January 12, 2008
did i enjoyed my imh posting?? HELL YEAH!
was the 2nd wk as heartbreaking as the 1st??? -it was even more heartbreaking than the 1st week tt i almost cried yest ok! hmms.. hahas... i mean its seriously DAMN saddening to find the ppl are roaming arnd freely and talking to you as a friend when just a few days ago they have to be tied dwn to beds during admission due to their aggressiveness... and when you're just abt to strt a new relationship(TNPR) with a new fellow human being.. its goodbyes already..
and this other patient TOTALLY TOTALLY MADE my MORN sehhs.. serious shit.. he was SILENCE the whole of 7 days attachment despite my continuous effort to talk to him.. drag him into group activities etc etc... he wasnt responding much...-not even a smile!- and till yest which in the 8th and last day of imh posting... during the medication round which is arnd 7 plus 8am.. i gave him his water to drink with the meds la.. and aft drinking it.. he stared at my name tag and says.. NADIRAH BTE ISHAK... -WALAO WEIISSS!!!! I WAS LIKE.. DID YOU JUST SAY OUT MY NAME??!!! OMG CANS!!! even the AN was shocked! the AN was like ' die panggil name kau?!' and i of cuz was smiling like dunno wad and nodding my head!!! OMG!!!! totally awesome sia... seriously! and he even sang a song for me when i ask him to do in the aftnoon!!! AAAAAAAWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!! the level of satisfaction you get there is simply OVERWHELMING! overwhelming sia.. bt tt is of cuz once you manage to accomplish smtg...
and of cuz theres the nxt door patients...who are like my very own patients as well.. and they can actually rmber my name OK! whenever i enter the ward (either ward.. mine on the nxt door ward) they'll be like.. NAD.. NADIRAH!... hellos, good morning, good afternoon!!! it gives you the pleasure of wanting to stay longer to just be with them.. get to know them more.. to literally want to help them.. and basically remove whatever stigma tts being attached to them.. bt of cuz tts like impossible and i literally feel sad due to tt ok.. (am too sensitive to pt as mr abu states).. haiiyaas..
but as for now.. i shall rmb imh as a place tt i met one of the nicest pts ever! who gave us whatever minimal things they had behind the locked.. locked and locked doors to entertain us.. to keep us occupied and not feel bored with them.. and definitely to educate us to help them.. -this part is seriously miraculous.. they teach us on the drugs they're taking.. beat that!
listen to this.. the 2 wards are being conneted via the nurses station.. and so i on one end of ths station(outside of the station cuz everywheres LOCKED) saw one of the nxt door ward's pt on the oth end.. and so i waved.. and he waved back.. and to further confirmed he was responding to me.. i tilted my head.. n he tilted his head! HAHAHAHS!! and then i shout across 'slamat mlm' -trying my luck cuz most pts can speak malay.. and he shouted back slamat mlm! cheys! hahahahs!!! damn funny and pras was saying.. 'WAH... telecommunication or wad sehhs!' HAHAHAHAHS!! and then i realise he is one of jue's closer pt.. by his bandaged hand.. DAMN CUTE CANS! hahahahahs!!!!
dont be mislead tt imh is a safe place though... there are bound to be aggressive and uncooperative pts.. if nt it wont be called imh rightts...
on another note i PASSED ARAB test! sigghhs.. kh still have to help me in translating some(alot)words! tsk tsk tsk!
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Tuesday, January 08, 2008
ALCOHOL DAMAGES THE BRAIN!!!
ok so tt'll be my topic for today..
apparently as everybody shld know.. our precious precious brain cells died every single day... every single hour.. every single min... and by consuming alcohol.. you'll just speed up the deterioration of the brain cells.. so yes imagine those heavy drinkers.. my goodnes.. they'll be a vegetables within no time.. save them the trouble of growing old..
and to those social drinkers...even a sip of alcohol will have an effect on the brain so yeahhs... you've been warned!
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Saturday, January 05, 2008
i do not wish to enter into imh agn.. its really tooo heartbreaking already.. seriously.. its not only mentally draining.. its emotional tiring as well.. its sadddening to the max!
and the brother was showing us some card tricks.. and then one of the patient thought me.. pras and the brother more card movements.. and impress us with even more impressive card plus dice movements.. its an amazing oppurtunity and priviledge to be there with them.. and do you know they actually clear up aft their meals.. as in.. they'll go and dry the dishes.. and wipe the tables etc etc.. if us.. HAHs.. fat hope mans..
anws.. the brother enter their domitaries aft their meds round with a guitar and sing to and with them.. OMG LAA!!!! his voice is soooo GOD DAMN NICE!!! and he got soo many talents.. not frgtting the patience to be with them.. and he even reminded us all to have a good night long MIND rest aft a days wrk.. i tink he has too much of a heart for a human being.. seriously... *shld have seen the way he talk to the patients when they misbehave and needed to be restrain.. it wasnt filled with anger it was infact filled with empathy and wanting to understand.. why why why.....
and i wanna find more more more of these kinda ppl to influence me to be one of them... =)
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Wednesday, January 02, 2008
"excuse me which stop is the imh bus stop???"
hahahahs!!! ok anw.. i didnt ask the bus driver for direction i counted the bus stop.. 3rd stop of buangkok green and i alighted.. thennnn.. i dunno how to walk in.. called up tong2... and she's gonna be alighting at the stop opp my bus stop.. so the instruction cldnt get any clearer. 'kau duduk kat bus stop tu diam2.. jap lagi aku sampai..' and when she did she had andy with her! hahahahhas!! okok.. bt the best part all the 3 of us dunno how to walk in.. and thus.. the oth 2 of them decided to trust MY instinct and go on.. we DID find the place! hahahahs.... tralalals~
bt the sad thing was i finally realise imh wasnt a MY ppl kinda place.. i mean i seriously thought it was a place for mad.. screw loose... mentally retarded... mentally slow.. and all the other words you'd describe it.. bt it WASNT. it was just like all oth hospitals.. a place for those who arent well.. but in this particular institute.. the ppl who are admitted here suffers not frm physical injuries bt frm mental injuries.. and whats more they cannot control themselves.. and they actually enters the hospital and are being told tt they have this illness.. and they have to actually treat themselves.. cuz nobody else can.. its all abt the mind.. the brain.. imagine what if you're in their shoes.. i doubt i'll actually accepts the reality larhhs.. cuz its tooo scary already...
bt nevertheless.. the ppl there are pretty scary.. in a sense tt im nt use to their norm yet.. tmr and fri are gonna be pretty tough.. so brace myself nadirah!
"my goal is to eat all my medicines and learn to ignore the 2 male voices in my head and get discharge and go back to my family and to work."-schizophrenia pt.
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